here is the deal.
i have 2 ends to my trust continuum.
none. or blind.
i either do not trust you or it or them.
or I trust you blindly.
i start with the NO TRUST setting most of the time.
then occasionally, i toggle over to blind trust.
trust is the relational part of faith - believing people, giving them slack, going with them.
most of the time, I do not trust God.
I want to bound God, tame God, hold God to my definitions & expectations.
i do not trust God in the NOW - instead I stay with my yesterday wrongs or my tomorrow worries.
Things can fall apart, or threaten to, for many reasons, and then there's got to be a leap of faith. Ultimately, when you're at the edge, you have to go forward or backward; if you go forward, you have to jump together.