back to the corner - fusing my divided life back together

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So I am back.  Hard to be believe it has been almost 10 months since I have last posted.  That is the longest gap in this blog since I started 7 years ago.

It would be easy for me to say I got tired of posting or that the conversation flagged or that the SPAM comments got exhausting to keep up with deleting.  Easy, but untrue.

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Instead, the truth is I gave up - I waved the white flag of surrender.

Straddling a formal setting and the voice I can embody here got too much for me.  I tried - a few posts here & there, comments on folks I adore.  But the straddle became too tough, the division hard to do in plain sight.

But the universe moves in the most interesting ways - and I am back.  Back to the corner, a place that has been so generative for me, a place where I can muse and write and not have to make sense.

On my bike ride today, I listened to a great podcast from Sounds True.  In it, a hero of mine - Parker J. Palmer - spoke about divided lives:

Here is the ultimate irony of the divided life: live behind a wall long enough, and the true self you tried to hide from the world disappears from your own view!

My self-imposed exile over the last year resonates with Palmer's insight.  So here I am - over the wall again, striving for a deeper acceptance of my own nature and that of the world.

Comments

[Ann Carlton]

so thrilled you are back Mom

[mark oestreicher]

sweet!

[Craig]

and a voice cries out in the wilderness

[Rick Diamond]

HOOOOOOOOOO RAY. i'm witcha.

[Lisa and Bob Carlton]

your honest voice is so needed in this crazy world. love you.

[db]

love it. thank you.

[Shelton Green]

This is a very good thing!

[HeidiRenee]

welcome back - have missed your voice!